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Sara da Encarnação's avatar

Powerfull message. Impressive rebirth. Good to meet you HVR.

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Hawtorn V. Rabot's avatar

You too.

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Belle DreamCatcher's avatar

I feel that. Belle is my newest phoenix 🔥

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Hawtorn V. Rabot's avatar

Hi Belle, I'm HV motherfucking R.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bflRInMeFo8

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Swathi's avatar

“Out of his ashes came a fiery phoenix, Hawtorn V. Rabot, the person I always was. Jay was the one others shaped, forced, assaulted, silenced, abused, and put in a fire to their desired shape.” Incredible. I’m in a similar stage, though I’m still struggling with the remnants of my past identity. I love all that this app’s done for you and I can’t wait for you to reach even greater heights!!

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Hawtorn V. Rabot's avatar

And thank you.

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Hawtorn V. Rabot's avatar

I took Jay out back, bound his hands, gagged him, dug a hole, filled it with gasoline, dropped a match, slit hit throat, pushed him in, and buried him.

Rest in shit, Jay.

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Laura B Writing in the Shadows's avatar

Rest in shit, Jay.

May the pieces of you stay scattered where they fell...

under the boots of everyone who tried to own you.

May no one gather them.

May no one rebuild you.

May the version of you that bent until it broke stay exactly that: broken, buried, and blessedly unresurrected.

May your ghost roam the paperwork halls of the IRS, forever trying to prove an identity that no longer exists...

a haunting so dull even the reaper refuses to clock in.

And to the creature that rose from your remains...HVR,

molten, razored, hauled out of the fire wearing nothing but rage and a bad attitude..,

may you never forget:

some of us aren’t reborn;

we burn our way out.

So yes. I’m here.

Front row.

Not with flowers... with a shovel.

Not clapping... but making sure the dirt lands heavy, so the world can’t dig Jay back up

and shove him into you again.

Long live Hawtorn V. Rabot.

Long live the flame that ate the man they tried to sculpt into obedience.

And may every gatekeeper inhale the soot of Jay’s cremation and choke on the audacity of your resurrection.

Hand me a match.

Let’s get this shit done.

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Hawtorn V. Rabot's avatar

That's the great eulogy I've ever read.

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Laura B Writing in the Shadows's avatar

I enjoyed writing it! Like writing your version Ding Dong The Bitch is Dead 🫶🏽🤘🏽🖤🔥🍻

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Hawtorn V. Rabot's avatar

I think? I wrote this before I saw that one, but I’m not sure.

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Laura B Writing in the Shadows's avatar

I mean the eulogy that I wrote for you... but yes, we're both killing the bitch 🔥

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Hawtorn V. Rabot's avatar

HEHE

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Hawtorn V. Rabot's avatar

Haven't heard that one.

It made me think of this

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FRP0MBNoieY

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Gemma's avatar

That is all so fucking awesome Hawtorn. A whole new persona. Brave. Love it.

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Hawtorn V. Rabot's avatar

Thank you. Jay had to go.

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Alix@IN2LProds's avatar

After reading it, I have only one word: Powerful🤙🏻🤙🏻🤙🏻!

A discarded, near-death Jay finally realized he was a puppet shaped by others. In that moment, Jay died, and the reborn HVR was born from the ashes.

HVR is not just a pen name; he is a fighter coming to start a revolution, fueled by 2000 pages of fury!

"Burn down the bullshit! Disrupt the gatekeepers! Crash the algos!"🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

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Alix@IN2LProds's avatar

Boom 💥 💥!

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Hawtorn V. Rabot's avatar

CRRAAAAAAASH.

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Alix@IN2LProds's avatar

🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

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Sher''s avatar

Nice to meet a kindred spirit...I've walked a very similar path. Having survived the transition, I've no regrets.

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Hawtorn V. Rabot's avatar

Good to know.

Did you kill the old you?

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Andrea Thorfinson's avatar

I’ve learned in my own life that the moments that felt like endings, the ones that almost broke me, were actually the catalysts for the biggest inner shifts. There’s a strange kind of quiet power in realizing who we become when the old version of us finally burns away. I felt that in every line of this. Like Dorie said, congratulations on your rise from the ashes.

And, as a side note, as I read your book, the way you described your wife reminded me so much of my oldest son’s ex. He almost married her, and when that relationship ended, I remember feeling this huge sigh of relief for him. Seeing the dynamics you went through brought that feeling back. I really admire the strength it takes to walk out of something that was shaping you into someone you weren’t.

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Hawtorn V. Rabot's avatar

I just read this.

I'm mad at my wife, but I guess also not? I gave her the opportunities, and she took them.

The flipside? I would never take advantage of opportunities. I think.

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🧿Merveye's avatar

Rebirth Rabot 🔥🔥🔥

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🧿Merveye's avatar

Dark Phoenix 😍😍

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Hawtorn V. Rabot's avatar

YEEEEEEEEEEES.

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🧿Merveye's avatar

Lol me in an hour 😩😩

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Becky Hayward's avatar

That liminal space before rising, the comfort of giving up, but still being addicted to getting back up. Fuck. It's hard. Glad you made it out of here, friend. HV Fucking R! Nice to meet you.

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Hawtorn V. Rabot's avatar

Nice to meet you.

I don't know why I get up. The therapists don't either.

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Assemblywoman Debra Mazzarelli's avatar

WHEN JAY died, and HVR came to be, did you grieve the loss?

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Hawtorn V. Rabot's avatar

Nah. I did give him a Viking funeral though.

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Assemblywoman Debra Mazzarelli's avatar

I always wanted that when I go! Not just a cremation…a blow-out burial in the ocean I love! What a way to go! Don’t think it’s legal in NY!

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Dorie Snow/雪多丽's avatar

The passion of rebirth can be overwhelming. Congratulations on your rise from the ashes. In this moment, remember to give yourself grace and take care of your spirit. Nurture this new version of yourself like a child until a firm foundation is established within. Gently flame your new fire. Don’t exhaust yourself by burning the candle at both ends. You have a new chance at life. Cherish it.

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Darby Jones's avatar

I love people who talk with third person. They have so much confidence.

But you're half-assing the name dude. You gotta go all the way ...

HV MFing R!

Let's be real bro. At our age, it's slim pickens out there. All the good ones are mommas. A mother fucker does not need to be derogatory. It's just a dude who knows his audience. And a momma is just a gal who's old enough to be your lover.

Let me hear your cougar growl HV MFing R.

Just don't make it weird. As long as you go after the single mammas, it's cool. You'll have to put up with kids running around willy-nilly. Mom's like it when you bring discipline to the table.

HV MFing R: "Don't make me tell you again Benjamin. Keep it down over there. You're killing the mood."

[Cacophonous noises]

HV MFing R: "I'm gonna pound your bottom!!!"

Benjamin: "No, don't do that!"

HV MFing R: "I would never do that to you Benjamin. I was talking to your mother.”

Benjamin: [under his breath] "You mother fucker."

HV MFing R: "I heard that Benjamin! You! Are! WELCOME! OMG!"

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Hawtorn V. Rabot's avatar

HAHAH. I thought of this.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=waT96YqpDNs

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